January 10th

Today would of been my Mom's birthday. This morning as I was getting ready I was thinking about it and was doing the math in my head to figure out how old she would of been. 73 years old! When I stop and think about it, I can't even imagine what she would look like at 73 years old. I guess in my minds eye she will forever be 54 years old.

Over the holiday season I found that she was in a lot of my dreams. I have noticed that when I do dream about her, she is always more or less in the background, watching, and not saying anything at all. I wonder if I was dreaming about her because of going through old pictures?

I know that she does watch over us, and I know how proud she is of Ryan and Crystal. It saddens me that they didn't get to know her better (Ryan was 6 and Crystal was 3 when she passed), and that she didn't get to know them better.